16 May 2007

Been more than 2 weeks since I last blogged, too many things happened.As of now:

1)Happy 21st B'day to May Lin.....and belated bday's to Veron and isaac n who else..hmmm..

2)Finished my exam....only scrod 70++....underperformed.....geezz....

3)Submitted my final AMS report...but...I still need to work on some research stuff for publication purposes...just when i tot i'd hav a rest...damn.....i'v now got 3 publication materials put on queue....better hope to get it done b4 july b4 uni starts again damn

4)Went panballing last week....earned a nickname called "Rambo"...not bcos my skills were good...but bcos i killed a tough guy by committing suicide myself....

5) Goin to Spain-Portugal next week by myself...n i speak no spanish...hope things will go well....damn scary ler....all i know to say is "Hola Hola"

6)Goin back home...wats more important than that...for once in recent yers ...i finally felt homesick...hav i been suppresing my emotions or am I just an ignorant fool?

7)I dun wana start uni just yet.....startin uni in july means 20 wks of uni in a row without any break...i repeat No mid sem break at all!!!!And these are supposedly the hardest semesters in th whole medical course.....please time....go slow......

8)NBA playoffs: It'll be a miracle if Suns can beat Spurs tonite...I hope they do...plzzzz....and fcuk the spurs how can they play like that...n the league is not to fair with suspending Stoudamire and Diaw...wtf man!!!!

9)I just wana sleep..........

誕生日おめでとう

It's been a while, a long while, so long, so long.......

I left home since high school days were over.Traveled to Melb reluctantly.There I started afresh,working hard,trying to achieve the goals of my life.A step where no mistkes are tolerable cos my future career path relies heavily on it.Too many study pressures, too many targets and plans.In the end, I made it to the gate of med after all.Question is, if that was the right choice,not that it matters anymore.If there was a better way to describe what I achieved in the year 2003,it'd be self-discovery and development for the betterment.

2004 was my 1st year in uni.My parents always said uni is the golden era of one's life.So I'd always tried to treasure it as much as possible.But looking forward to it doesn't necessarily mean it was great fun.In fact uni life can be very daunting.It's a transition to society.It's also one of the places where people are abit more unfriendly and individualistic than you'd hoped for. Interesting enough, you see different types and aspects of people, both good and bad.In summary,1st year started off strong,but ended in a crumble.

2005 saw great improvements.College life was fun.People were lot better than those u know in uni,in general.Found some really good mates,whom we still keep in touch.It was fun,though my grades drop!Haha!And things generally went smoother than previous years,though there are times when things got abit out of hand,but in the end,everything was fine,at least I accepted that it was fine.

All pumped up for 2006.I was so energetic in the 1st half of the year in college,trying to get more involved. Though I could not sustain such energy level throughout the sem. All things went down hill after my big B'day party.Maybe it's because I've tried to bury my emotions for far too long over the years. I was too tired. There are just things you can't ignore, even if you try to deny it.But I persevered through.

2nd half of 2006 marked a new beginning, at least I hoped for.It was supposedly my "honeymoon" year,my gap year,where I can do whatever I want in my life.Travel, basketball,Japanese class,working.I had the time of my life to do them.No exams, no assignments no nothing.Too free in fact.New life in London started off and proceeded decently.

2007 marks a different pace of life.It's like Phoenix suns' Run & Gun game,only that I can't make those baskets.Or to be more precise,I'm more like Dallas Mavs being run over by the versatile Golden state warriors.Ok cut the basketball analogies.Basically things changed too rapidly and there was just way too much work and not enough help.But somehow I survived though the harshest time of all.Good work.

It's all coming to an end. Tomorrow marks a different phase of my life. I silently promised myself. I wonder, would it be time to change again? Time to go uphill instead. Mentally I'm not as strong as before due to all the exhaustion,but hope things get better this time.

No more empty promises. No more unrealistic dreams. And no more turning back,regretting things of the past. It's sometimes easier said than done,but when you try doing it,obstacles go against your will. No one said it was gonna be easy, and certainly other people try equally hard if not harder than you. For life and human is all about th survival of the fittest.

I don't know what lies ahead.But hopefully from here on out,the drought would end,the winter would end,the stormy rain would cease. For I'm desperately looking for you, the spring of youth. May you find me too. Happy B'day!



2006 - 21st B'day - The Ex-404's. All in green and ready to go!!!

2005 - 20th B'day - In Crown buffet, lame poser with Arsenal cap
2005 - 2oth B'day - IH JCR, got "ON" by those lunatics
2004 - 19th B'day - After dinner at one of Chinatown's restaurant

2003 - 18th B'day - All you can eat steamboat buffet,it was really cheap back then


All these years weren't a waste. Happy hours and sad moments. I will remember you, for you will make me strong. To fearlessly march forward to eternity. For I can't turn back time not do I want to look back 20 years from now in regret. For life is too short. For I'm only human!

Break the cycle

Too often we fall
Too often we crush into the wall

Too often in pain
Too often we complain


Too tired
Too frustarted
For it takes courage and energy to get back up again and face the world
For I feel intimidated and ashamed at how other will look at me

For everyone tries hard in life
Tries hard to break the vicious cycles in life
Tries hard to become the person we always wanted to be,borned to be and destined to be
How many times we fall
How many times we crawl
And how many times w bang into the wall

For life is not easy
For everyone tries hard
To be the very best they can be

Live in the moment
Never stop the momentum

Break the vicious cycle
And create a miracle

For at the moment u close ur eyes, all will be in histories pages
For a thousand years later, it wont matter anymore
For this very moment we know that we r alive
And that's the most important.

Here I am, still alive.

The city that loves the Queue

If you can only go to one place in Europe, make it Paris!
The city that is lively and beautiful offers world class museums,shopping and cuisine.It is undeniably one of the best cities in Europe that I've been to.

I call it the city that loves the queue,simply bcos tourism is such a popular thing here and practically everywhere u go,u hav to queue up.U probably end up spending more time queuing than visiting inside the attraction itself,how troublesome!Just the wait to get up to Eifel tower takes 1.5-2 hours.And once u get up there, u c more queues....its insanity!!!!

The big pyramid and main entrance into the Louve, home to the Leonardo da Vinci's Mona Lisa
Notre Dame Cathedral in the centre of Paris,really huge and really crowded,but it's free!
Eifel tower sparkles with beauty every hour sharp, pretty much like in Crown where u get the fire show every hour....btw it's already 12 when I got down from the tower.
Arc de Triomphe: The biggest roundabout in the world.Also the monument used in the world cup 98 promotion if I remembered correctly.
Deliciously cooked French cuisine in a small lovely restaurant, the nearer one is lamb while the further one is caramel pork

Well,I can only upload limited number of pictures as my internet is really sluggish here.Though in addition to Paris, we also took metro and train outside.Visited the World cup stadium and the Stadium for th Paris Saint Germain (PSG) and I bought one of their T-shirts.Also paid a visit to Versailles, which is the most awesome chateau in France resided by the kings and also the place where the French revolution took place, if u still remember ur Sejarah lessons!

All in all, it's a nice place to visit...and I've actually started finalising plans my next trip, which is a 10 day trip to Spain-Portugal after I finish my AMS research year.I'm really looking forward to it especially Spain as I've heard so much about it, though it'll also be the 1st time for me to travel alone in a country where I don't speak the native language at all,gonna be tough.

Well, guess I should really get my mood back to continue and finish my research report!I'm so slack now!

Chelsea Chelsea

So much for the inefficient and faulty public transport, I can't believe that I missed the kickoff on Wed nite.Yes, I finally managed to get tix for football.It was Chelsea vs Valencia,UEFA Quarter finals.I was abt half an hour late though i was supposed to come half an hour early,but luckily I arrived like 5 minutes b4 the 1st goal.Game ended up at 1-1 and both teams will head back to spain for the 2nd game.

Well,girls....if u ever wana c men singing....plz goto the football stadium.Honestly,its where u find most men singing,cheering for their team,haha so yea guys do sing,n they'r really in sync.
The atmosphere was good, i can understand wat Fang meant by its a life-changing experience(quoted from Rachel...cos i dun wana b sued for not referencing...geez been doin too much academic writing these days)....anyway, u'll get wat i mean when u r there...its a must to experience the whole game atmosphere....though i had to pay 54 pounds for it!And for ur info,they dun usually sell tix to general public,u hav to b a club member to hav access to ticket sales mostlo,so i was really lucky that i managed to get those tix.

Also,when the game ended,there's this massive crowd comin out from the stadium that usually b4 n after games,poice hav to do road blocks,so all the roads r closed n vehicles cant access.It's the padestrians world,also tells u how much ppl r crazy for this sport!

Anyway just some pix of the stadium n the game.

Stamford Bridge Stadium-Home for the Chelsea FC (I was in a rush,so just simply took it)

Crowd heating up,Valencia fans sit at top right end corners,under the big screen

Closer view of the goal area, it's Chelsea's attack once again...though I can't really c whois playing


Well,that's about it.Am still stuck at home writing up my report,am about 25% done only,hope I can push it up to 45% b4 I goto Paris nex week,so wish me luck!

Happy Easter everyone!

Thank You

Thank you
For giving me life,for giving me love
Thank you
For the comfort and warmth
And the luxuries in life
Far too long, far too warm,until I took you for granted.

Thank you
For knowing me and growing up with me
Play with me, study with me
Thank you
For acknowledging me and seeing me differently
For trusting and supporting me, no matter how far away.


Thank you
For staying alive, especially at times of distress.
Thank you for believing on what you believe the most
Thank you
For never giving up and climb up after a fall
even when there was no one to pull you up.

Thank you...
Thank you......
Thank you.........

Right here, Right now

Fell sick again on last wed but that didn't stop me from my Manchester trip.

Manchester is a nice place,I suppose calling it the "Melbourne of UK" is not an overstatement.
Thought it's just like another city,trams,shopping malls.Good thing about it is that it offers gourmet food at a more affordable price by UK standard.Went Yum Cha for 3 ppl, only cost us 17 pounds altogether,whereas in London,I had to pay 17 pounds per head the other day. In short,food here is good n cheap.Here are some photos.

Salford Quay

Old Trafford Stadium- Home of the Manchester United
MU's newly signed player-not too bad huh

It actually took me a while to finally decide to buy that jersey cos preferably I'd want an Arsenal one,but oh well since I'm already at the MU store, I tot I might as well buy it right since they hav exactly wat I wanted except for the logo,all the other things like colors names etc fits my needs.Like in one of Cemoron Diaz's film, "there's no Mr Right,but there's a Mr Right now...perhaps one day Mr right now can become Mr Right."

Well I suppose everyone understands that we need to live in the moment.Dwelling too much on the past and thinkin too much abt the future sure isnt gona help.And certainly, indecisiveness/hesitation and procrastination is a definite NONO in the present.That's why I decided to buy the jersey 1st and think later though it cost me 55 pounds to get all the jersey,numbers.logo and names printed but i guess it's quite satisfying.

Anyway like KH said,a good blogger keeps his blog short so I'll stop right here,right now!

60 Days and countingdown

60 Days...approximately 2 months...b4 it all ends...hopefully....

19 weeks per sem ain't fun at all

attending wards and clinics from 8am till 7pm with breaks in between,still.....

9000 thesis with limited time left

reading 60 journal articles overloads u with repetitive info

6 hour exam that I know naught

workin in office is boring

staring at the com's screen all day makes me dizzy

workin on things that u arent being assessed for, it's called duty

60 days left
7 for travel
a few for slacking
a few for wasting
a few for actual studying
and the lot for work work work

all work n no play makes raymond a dull boy
half work n half play makes raymond a tired boy
no work n all play makes raymond a holiday boy

I need more time!!!!

Finally an update

So much for slacking off last semesters, now is the time to pay the price.

Telling people that you've traveled 7 countries in 7 months is cool, but it is so uncool when u fall sick at the end of the day,cumulatively getting 4 cold/flu in the last 5 months.That surely isn't fun.

More inconceivably, having your work load doubling in every single aspect, be it clinical work,computer work,paper work, writing etc. things are just all over the place, especially for someone who hasn't been working so hard for the last few months...sudden increase in stress hormone might just tip off the balance of ones health, causing a myriad gazillion problems...dun even wana go to deep with that......btw I'm currently slacking off to write a post on my blog just because I'm too lazy to work now......

Well,crack the depressing part.Really looking forward to the upcoming 3 months I have left in UK.Frankly, I haven't been to a freakin soccer match!!!!!This is bloody annoying!!!!Nor do I hav the chance of watchin Wimbledon since I'll already be in Melb by then.Instead, I'm heading to Bermingham this weekend to be spectator in the semis and finals for the All-England Badminton competition with a group of Msians from my uni.Guess we're gona shout out loud MALAYSIA BOLEH!!!!!!!!!!!!Well,provided they advance to those rounds though.....

And at the end of the month,goin to Manchester but NOT to watch an MU watch...how disappointing....prob is they dun sell most of their season tickets to the general public and u gota b some silver member or smth to be able to purchase most of the match tix....seriously sux man!
But I guess Manchester would be fine...just chilling out with close frens and talking trash is good enuf for me....just the right timing to relieve my accumulated stress....bsides i manged to get a freakin cheap return bus ticket form megabus.com for only 2.50 pounds,freakin dirt cheap!

I've also bought Eurostar tix to Paris for Easter break and hopefully that'd b fun.Though the hotel that I booked (NB aint not backpackers around paris,and for some hotel u need to pay 2.50 euro for a farkin shower)is extremely central....they say that its in a Red Light District....so....hohoho wats gonna happen?Would be intersting ler....jkjk....but yea...paris would b an awesome destination....disneyland,the louve,eifel tower....n the list goes on.............

And my last eurotrip would probably happen after i finish my research n b4 goin back to msia.Have already bought my flight tix for my 10 day Espanio-portugal tripo.....apparently I heard that in summer u'll c lotsa hot spanish chics in short skirts and slim legs strolling along the street...but hmmm i might b thinking too much of eye candy lately....but anyway 4got to tell u guys after i came back from Scandinavia....seriously i think scandi gals r hot,slim,blonde and beautiful....a gazillion times better than wat i c everyday in this small little island in europe.....

And oh,this month I'm also gona go to a reality show!!!hhaha no i am just a spectator..thats all...but would b fun if u do c my face appearing on bbc...lolz..i hope....

Well,nothing much to say really,apart from the many many many things that are expected to happen soon.....but yea sometimes its just freeakin tiring after work and study....n the lack of time...n guess wat ...i'm already staring to do countdown on the days left....haha...double digit left...so excited ...cant waait to get home and to go back to aus......meh...am falling asleep now....gota go guys....


P.S. Does anyone know alot about PDA/palm...please giv me some advice/recommendation on it or maybe even some useful websites.....newest model coming soon etc....i prefer a light-weight n smaller one btw

One step at a time

One step at a time
Slowly but steadily

One step a time
You'll be closer to your goal

Don't be too greedy
Don't be too hasty

For you will learn to crawl,to walk,to run and to fly
One by one!

Don't be overwhelmed
And don't feel compelled

One step at a time,
Slowly but surely

Forward we go
To a place called home

Little by little
We can build a miracle

One step at a time
We are closer to our goal!