Life has been very routined this week, the same old wake up and go to work routine has been quite repetitive and clinic sessions are staring to get abit boring...gosh...almost fell asleep in one....there was also this afternoon when it was so dang hot that I have to study in Starbucks...but it was nice...oh did i tell u guys this?...in London u can c starbucks almost everywhere...in some places...there might be 3 on the same street...juz walk 50 steps n u'll reach the nex one...i bet there's at least 100 shops in london alone!!!
Anyway, was supposed to start training this weekend for my potential part time job in a jap restaurant but the chef din call me...so I decided to goto Greenwich. It takes about 40 mins to get there from where I live and Greenwich is really very peaceful n nice place to spend a day in.You can stand at the pier enjoying the refershing sea breeze...erm i mean RIVER breeze....n u can goto the Greenwich park, watch the people around you havin fun....climb up a small hilly slope and u'r at the Royal Observatory...thats where the Prime Meridein time thingy starts!...It's nothin that great really-_-;;
It's nothin really taht special but sometimes it's juz nice to leave the bustling hectic city centre and go out somewhere, take a deep breath of a refresing air and let the wind blow upon your face.It is indeed very sotthing and relaxing. Simplicity in life is the best...at times ^_^
Sunday, July 30, 2006
Monday, July 24, 2006
AEIOU
Aimless- Why am I alive...Not knowing who I am, who I was nor who I really wanna be...what I wan in life and things I look forward too...it is sad to be in this motivationless state where u know a strong will and motivation is exactly what I need to make a difference in this world
Emptiness- How sad it is to not to feel anythin at all....its one of the most painful thing in life but dunno why...I'm still emotionless....juz like an empty trash can along the road...it's as if...nothing matters anymore in my life....I know that's not true...but I seriously feel nothin now....u call that NUMB...I dunno wat makes me happy anymore....even clubbing nor travelling....doin those stuff juz makes me feel normal....like any other day
Isolated- From this world...almost completely...this society that is still quite ALIEN to me...it feels that I dun really belong here....it felt as if I was back to square one...like how things used to be when I was in Trinity...being alone in my room ...doin watever stuff I'm doin...in this foreign place...so hot (the weather)...yet so cold (inside)....
Overwhelming- With the workload? Not really ....but overwhlemed with what's expected of myself...AMS deadlines and supervisor expectations r things that will come eventually...but its supposed to b relaxin now...yet I still try to push myself to get smth out of this yer...be it my target to finish touring a dozen Euro countries...revising & strengthening my medical knowledge that I haven't properly learnt in the last 2 years....and trying to do partime jobs in weekends for watever reason....I juz feel that somehow I gotta get smth out of this yer....it's an experience of a lifetime afterall
Uncertainty- With wats goin on around me...its partially out of control...things juz happen npass by...but all I can do is juz to stare blank;y n dumbly like a donkey...mouth agape...I seriously dunno anything anymore...watever it is that I am doing....everynite is juz watchin One Tree Hill or playin pool....then wake up wonderin wats gonna happen today...for watever it is..it doesn't matter really....cos nothin interest me anymore...I dun feel anythin at all...n I duuno why...I am juz like a ZOMBIE
Aimless- Why am I alive...Not knowing who I am, who I was nor who I really wanna be...what I wan in life and things I look forward too...it is sad to be in this motivationless state where u know a strong will and motivation is exactly what I need to make a difference in this world
Emptiness- How sad it is to not to feel anythin at all....its one of the most painful thing in life but dunno why...I'm still emotionless....juz like an empty trash can along the road...it's as if...nothing matters anymore in my life....I know that's not true...but I seriously feel nothin now....u call that NUMB...I dunno wat makes me happy anymore....even clubbing nor travelling....doin those stuff juz makes me feel normal....like any other day
Isolated- From this world...almost completely...this society that is still quite ALIEN to me...it feels that I dun really belong here....it felt as if I was back to square one...like how things used to be when I was in Trinity...being alone in my room ...doin watever stuff I'm doin...in this foreign place...so hot (the weather)...yet so cold (inside)....
Overwhelming- With the workload? Not really ....but overwhlemed with what's expected of myself...AMS deadlines and supervisor expectations r things that will come eventually...but its supposed to b relaxin now...yet I still try to push myself to get smth out of this yer...be it my target to finish touring a dozen Euro countries...revising & strengthening my medical knowledge that I haven't properly learnt in the last 2 years....and trying to do partime jobs in weekends for watever reason....I juz feel that somehow I gotta get smth out of this yer....it's an experience of a lifetime afterall
Uncertainty- With wats goin on around me...its partially out of control...things juz happen npass by...but all I can do is juz to stare blank;y n dumbly like a donkey...mouth agape...I seriously dunno anything anymore...watever it is that I am doing....everynite is juz watchin One Tree Hill or playin pool....then wake up wonderin wats gonna happen today...for watever it is..it doesn't matter really....cos nothin interest me anymore...I dun feel anythin at all...n I duuno why...I am juz like a ZOMBIE
Friday, July 14, 2006
The Journey Begins
It's almost 10 days since I have arrived in the UK for the very 1st time in my life.Time really flies and I can't believe that I've alreadt finished my Pre-clinical semesters in Medicine a month ago.All this while,for thoso who know me very well, you know that it's always been my dream to go overseas for AMS and now that I'm finally there,I honestly dunno what exactly to do.No, it's not exactly a crossroad thatI'm facing...it's an unknown territory...welcome to the real world!
Well just going back to my supershort 3 weeks holiday in Penang...it was crap...really...it's not exactly the worst...but it kinda feels like a curse...I call it the "Cursed Tuesday"
1st Tuesday(13/06/06)-My guitar was broken during my flight from Melb to PG....I was on SIA/SQ...n shit they refuse to compensate....not even a single cent!
2nd Tuesday(20/06/06)-Decided to go out after a boring weekend at home...guess what...just when I was less than 500m away from the shopping complex....a stupid transportation truck crashed into me...claiming that he din c me wor...jack ass....then I hav to deal with the stupid police reporting n insurance claiming blah blah blah....both of which pissed me off real bad...spoilt my holiday mood really!
3rd Tuesday(27/06/06)-Well well...I was really prayin hard that nothing bad happens...but I know for sure that the result of my clinical school's gona come out today...n watever Hospital I get allocated today...it would sorta be where I'll be spending most of my time in when I get back from UK to complete my Med degree....guess what...I got allocated to my LAST choice....this is bullshit man...what kinda luck is that...though I admit my results aren't that great...but man...givin u ur last choice makes u "beh syok" only...btw its a hokkien!
Oh and apart from those cursed events on Tuesday...I also had allergic conjunctivitis during my 2nd week back home...dunno why...guess I rubbed my eyes too much...that's why I hate gin abck home....it's too dusty ...too easy to get allergies...ah chooo!
Then off I went to UK...arrived at Heathrow airport in London in the evening...took a tube and change stations a few times until I got to my cousin's fren's home...with my 48kg worth of luggages...n guess what ...there's no lift ...and I hav to carry my stupid luggages by raw power....argg..back ache!
Then the next day...shifted again to the hall of residence where I'm supposed to stay in permanently...so have to shift the 48kgs again...damn....and guess what...the lady in charge of the hall said :"u'll hav to move again at the end of this month cozzzz someones still stayin in ur room....so take another room 1st n shift again later." But fortunately this time there's a lift n its only one floor up...and not like 10 tube stations away!
Oh and also when I travelled around London...I got lost a few times...spent 2 hours lookin for a grocery shop but din find it..ended up in some tourist ayttraction that I've already been to.....oh one more....I was pulled in by a street performer together with 3 other ppl (from Manchester,LA & Germany) to do some stupid cheap ass dancing on the street with some stupid acts as well...blek! -_-;;
Oh well, I guess life in a new country isn't easy at hall...once u get out of ur comfort zone...u sometimes feel very very out of control,nervous,anxious,lost......etc etc....but no matter how it is....there ain't no turnin back....n no this is not teh beginning of the end....but rather this just the end of a new beginning.
It's about time to stand up once again & time to start afresh...a journey of a lifetime...
This is the start of the path of a Rurouni......Aza Aza Fighting! (wat the??!?!?)
It's almost 10 days since I have arrived in the UK for the very 1st time in my life.Time really flies and I can't believe that I've alreadt finished my Pre-clinical semesters in Medicine a month ago.All this while,for thoso who know me very well, you know that it's always been my dream to go overseas for AMS and now that I'm finally there,I honestly dunno what exactly to do.No, it's not exactly a crossroad thatI'm facing...it's an unknown territory...welcome to the real world!
Well just going back to my supershort 3 weeks holiday in Penang...it was crap...really...it's not exactly the worst...but it kinda feels like a curse...I call it the "Cursed Tuesday"
1st Tuesday(13/06/06)-My guitar was broken during my flight from Melb to PG....I was on SIA/SQ...n shit they refuse to compensate....not even a single cent!
2nd Tuesday(20/06/06)-Decided to go out after a boring weekend at home...guess what...just when I was less than 500m away from the shopping complex....a stupid transportation truck crashed into me...claiming that he din c me wor...jack ass....then I hav to deal with the stupid police reporting n insurance claiming blah blah blah....both of which pissed me off real bad...spoilt my holiday mood really!
3rd Tuesday(27/06/06)-Well well...I was really prayin hard that nothing bad happens...but I know for sure that the result of my clinical school's gona come out today...n watever Hospital I get allocated today...it would sorta be where I'll be spending most of my time in when I get back from UK to complete my Med degree....guess what...I got allocated to my LAST choice....this is bullshit man...what kinda luck is that...though I admit my results aren't that great...but man...givin u ur last choice makes u "beh syok" only...btw its a hokkien!
Oh and apart from those cursed events on Tuesday...I also had allergic conjunctivitis during my 2nd week back home...dunno why...guess I rubbed my eyes too much...that's why I hate gin abck home....it's too dusty ...too easy to get allergies...ah chooo!
Then off I went to UK...arrived at Heathrow airport in London in the evening...took a tube and change stations a few times until I got to my cousin's fren's home...with my 48kg worth of luggages...n guess what ...there's no lift ...and I hav to carry my stupid luggages by raw power....argg..back ache!
Then the next day...shifted again to the hall of residence where I'm supposed to stay in permanently...so have to shift the 48kgs again...damn....and guess what...the lady in charge of the hall said :"u'll hav to move again at the end of this month cozzzz someones still stayin in ur room....so take another room 1st n shift again later." But fortunately this time there's a lift n its only one floor up...and not like 10 tube stations away!
Oh and also when I travelled around London...I got lost a few times...spent 2 hours lookin for a grocery shop but din find it..ended up in some tourist ayttraction that I've already been to.....oh one more....I was pulled in by a street performer together with 3 other ppl (from Manchester,LA & Germany) to do some stupid cheap ass dancing on the street with some stupid acts as well...blek! -_-;;
Oh well, I guess life in a new country isn't easy at hall...once u get out of ur comfort zone...u sometimes feel very very out of control,nervous,anxious,lost......etc etc....but no matter how it is....there ain't no turnin back....n no this is not teh beginning of the end....but rather this just the end of a new beginning.
It's about time to stand up once again & time to start afresh...a journey of a lifetime...
This is the start of the path of a Rurouni......Aza Aza Fighting! (wat the??!?!?)
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