誕生日おめでとう

It's been a while, a long while, so long, so long.......

I left home since high school days were over.Traveled to Melb reluctantly.There I started afresh,working hard,trying to achieve the goals of my life.A step where no mistkes are tolerable cos my future career path relies heavily on it.Too many study pressures, too many targets and plans.In the end, I made it to the gate of med after all.Question is, if that was the right choice,not that it matters anymore.If there was a better way to describe what I achieved in the year 2003,it'd be self-discovery and development for the betterment.

2004 was my 1st year in uni.My parents always said uni is the golden era of one's life.So I'd always tried to treasure it as much as possible.But looking forward to it doesn't necessarily mean it was great fun.In fact uni life can be very daunting.It's a transition to society.It's also one of the places where people are abit more unfriendly and individualistic than you'd hoped for. Interesting enough, you see different types and aspects of people, both good and bad.In summary,1st year started off strong,but ended in a crumble.

2005 saw great improvements.College life was fun.People were lot better than those u know in uni,in general.Found some really good mates,whom we still keep in touch.It was fun,though my grades drop!Haha!And things generally went smoother than previous years,though there are times when things got abit out of hand,but in the end,everything was fine,at least I accepted that it was fine.

All pumped up for 2006.I was so energetic in the 1st half of the year in college,trying to get more involved. Though I could not sustain such energy level throughout the sem. All things went down hill after my big B'day party.Maybe it's because I've tried to bury my emotions for far too long over the years. I was too tired. There are just things you can't ignore, even if you try to deny it.But I persevered through.

2nd half of 2006 marked a new beginning, at least I hoped for.It was supposedly my "honeymoon" year,my gap year,where I can do whatever I want in my life.Travel, basketball,Japanese class,working.I had the time of my life to do them.No exams, no assignments no nothing.Too free in fact.New life in London started off and proceeded decently.

2007 marks a different pace of life.It's like Phoenix suns' Run & Gun game,only that I can't make those baskets.Or to be more precise,I'm more like Dallas Mavs being run over by the versatile Golden state warriors.Ok cut the basketball analogies.Basically things changed too rapidly and there was just way too much work and not enough help.But somehow I survived though the harshest time of all.Good work.

It's all coming to an end. Tomorrow marks a different phase of my life. I silently promised myself. I wonder, would it be time to change again? Time to go uphill instead. Mentally I'm not as strong as before due to all the exhaustion,but hope things get better this time.

No more empty promises. No more unrealistic dreams. And no more turning back,regretting things of the past. It's sometimes easier said than done,but when you try doing it,obstacles go against your will. No one said it was gonna be easy, and certainly other people try equally hard if not harder than you. For life and human is all about th survival of the fittest.

I don't know what lies ahead.But hopefully from here on out,the drought would end,the winter would end,the stormy rain would cease. For I'm desperately looking for you, the spring of youth. May you find me too. Happy B'day!



2006 - 21st B'day - The Ex-404's. All in green and ready to go!!!

2005 - 20th B'day - In Crown buffet, lame poser with Arsenal cap
2005 - 2oth B'day - IH JCR, got "ON" by those lunatics
2004 - 19th B'day - After dinner at one of Chinatown's restaurant

2003 - 18th B'day - All you can eat steamboat buffet,it was really cheap back then


All these years weren't a waste. Happy hours and sad moments. I will remember you, for you will make me strong. To fearlessly march forward to eternity. For I can't turn back time not do I want to look back 20 years from now in regret. For life is too short. For I'm only human!